wait I currently have covid and am being held in isolation in a college dorm room. The only contact with the outside world that I have is to wave a silk scarf to my lovers and friends out the window. Other than that I twice a day receive meals from my minder/guard Maureen who always winks at me when she says “have a nice night”, which I think has given me Stockholm syndrome. Please send help. I am VERY bored with the wig I brought with me.
I'm almost 25, just lost my 9 to 5 job with stable income, and feel super lost. I want to make art /music for a living but am afraid of taking the risk and working odd jobs to support myself right now so that I can work more on my creative practice. I'm all kinds of excited, nervous, stressed, and depressed.
John Ashbery said that essentially the desire for a god, a “sort of intendant to whom the most important tasks may be entrusted so as to leave you free for the necessary task of idleness that is a condition, the condition, of your being…” and the seeking of that intendant or administrator is not helpful and can be counterproductive in a way. But then he says that “It is better to take in a third person as a confidant, but since there is nothing to confide . . .” And he just kind of trails off but I do think in the individual search for meaning or order or control there is merit to a third person “confidant” to whom we communicate. I agree there is nothing to confide I.E. our telling doesn’t necessarily remedy larger concerns or questions BUT if he’s right and a third person would be better to turn to than god, who is that third person? The conscious mind which I try to remind myself is what “I” listen to? Or the individual other perceiver of me who effectively makes me with their perception?
My 7 year old daughter is experiencing existential dread. Every night, she's worried about the fact that she and I will both die one day. My poor baby.
zoloft nightmares made me dream my dead dad brought me to the tony awards and made me take a picture of him w seinfeld.. woke up and had to tutor a student ab Freud what does it all mean
trying to make it in a foreign city where somedays you feel amazing and others it feels like everything is x3 harder than it should be (plus gay angst lol)
i love all of you, i am being the little doctor and will respond as many as i can!!
for everybody in love with their best friend....that's called being gay.....https://open.spotify.com/track/1DfRCC2qpjjzc6l5DmTjkG?si=4c3c65a860834265
thank you it’s about time to rewatch the music video
a lot of you are coming to me with actual aches and pains in the lower back, legs, we even have a concussion in the chat..... this one is for all my girls with somethin physical going on: blood rose by tori amos https://open.spotify.com/track/4TB1VONcmN1kmzcgMwraZ0?si=d59209dd0f824434
if you have a broken arm stream speaking with trees: https://open.spotify.com/track/4g7Jknv7dTQ1IDoqsBTg8N?si=d247dec605b44f93
i have to go for tonight, i'll check back in tomorrow
waiting on results from a job interview but also wanting to transform into a goat and live on a mountain
Queer loneliness
same
love you little queers. smalltown boy - bronski beat https://open.spotify.com/track/5vmRQ3zELMLUQPo2FLQ76x?si=d2682cdb9c764978
Unsure if you're still active here, but I decided literally this morning that if you don't record a cover of this song I will simply PASS AWAY xxx
You just did. Played nothing at all out of the blue 3 minutes ago. Sated. Thanks again,
I need someone to kiss my forehead and I do not have someone to kiss my forehead
I'm Kissing You - Des'ree https://open.spotify.com/track/1Xp8MKmfoFDib6dHM6JF53?si=fee134ae8ec840fa
Thank you king 🥺 it's beautiful
recovering from a bone marrow transplant (thanks sister) to treat aplastic anemia
these are my girls!! healing girls https://open.spotify.com/track/2zqLPc7SNIX1JZmKtbq2F6?si=5b9ac5adca5b4d1e
very soothing to my bald young head
waiting for your misha article
wait I currently have covid and am being held in isolation in a college dorm room. The only contact with the outside world that I have is to wave a silk scarf to my lovers and friends out the window. Other than that I twice a day receive meals from my minder/guard Maureen who always winks at me when she says “have a nice night”, which I think has given me Stockholm syndrome. Please send help. I am VERY bored with the wig I brought with me.
can't remember the last time I felt safe
i'm sorry. a lot of Stars of the Lid sound very womblike, hope it can build a little coziness and you find somewhere safe soon https://open.spotify.com/track/4TrCvd1PrqI14lZb7tEtYo?si=8a68897bf82e484f
Marvelous, thank you 🙏🏻💗
miel pops zu zu zu
zu zu zuuuu
in love w my best friend lmfao
Compulsively procrastinating due to unresolved trauma even when it takes away from investing your time towards goals and artistry.
Did I write this?
ugh I feel this so hard
Capitalism
diamanda galas - litanies of satan https://open.spotify.com/track/1yVYBP4wsIAHI8p1w1pc5U?si=d1632014b301465e
thank you for the 17 minutes of surreal sonic escape, you gorgeous song doctor.
I'm almost 25, just lost my 9 to 5 job with stable income, and feel super lost. I want to make art /music for a living but am afraid of taking the risk and working odd jobs to support myself right now so that I can work more on my creative practice. I'm all kinds of excited, nervous, stressed, and depressed.
Same
i believe in you - talk talk https://open.spotify.com/track/3SzoVeS9Eaxt6dmfXF0fPo?si=feada820e4c34826
One of my favorites 💖
John Ashbery said that essentially the desire for a god, a “sort of intendant to whom the most important tasks may be entrusted so as to leave you free for the necessary task of idleness that is a condition, the condition, of your being…” and the seeking of that intendant or administrator is not helpful and can be counterproductive in a way. But then he says that “It is better to take in a third person as a confidant, but since there is nothing to confide . . .” And he just kind of trails off but I do think in the individual search for meaning or order or control there is merit to a third person “confidant” to whom we communicate. I agree there is nothing to confide I.E. our telling doesn’t necessarily remedy larger concerns or questions BUT if he’s right and a third person would be better to turn to than god, who is that third person? The conscious mind which I try to remind myself is what “I” listen to? Or the individual other perceiver of me who effectively makes me with their perception?
girl.....
also don't know what to have for dinner
Somehow I knew this was you before I even looked at the name
My 7 year old daughter is experiencing existential dread. Every night, she's worried about the fact that she and I will both die one day. My poor baby.
just lie. forever young - alphaville https://open.spotify.com/track/4S1VYqwfkLit9mKVY3MXoo?si=db2483f164bc4e01
Ok. Youth's like diamonds in the sun, and diamonds are forever.
I have diarrhea
overwhelming loneliness & feeling behind in life
indecisiveness and self-loathing, honestly
i just want this all to mean something to someone, i guess
the need to be hugged
this sounds like one: first time ever i saw your face - roberta flack https://open.spotify.com/track/0SxFyA4FqmEQqZVuAlg8lf?si=7e2923565c9b48f3
that felt warm and tender, thank you doc <3
Can’t stop procrastinating
stomach pains & digestive issues :( because god gives his toughest battles to his silliest gooses :(
the world is so close to falling apart, so much injustice and problems with capitalism
zoloft nightmares made me dream my dead dad brought me to the tony awards and made me take a picture of him w seinfeld.. woke up and had to tutor a student ab Freud what does it all mean
sleepless nights, stomach aches, sad thoughts
also not being able to find the right words
it roll https://open.spotify.com/track/6Vz2IQv3AYoznh4tjsrRPo?si=793bb305a0f24b43
something is going on here
concussion and unrequited longing
grad school is too bleak
too depressed to hang my fake cobwebs
try lady of ice by fancy https://open.spotify.com/track/3NcUi2XgjGCvDDYXINQWrQ?si=592c98aa1f3e4407
melancholia while laying on a beach at night
try a classic: https://open.spotify.com/track/31TAub5WKWEsVTJcdksxq7?si=bce041c23a304573
unhealthy interpersonal dependence in relationships makes me feel broken & sad
Hello Dr. Genius. Dealing with a lot of transphobic microaggressions from my family lately. And overall never-ending gender dysphoria.
I have been diagnosed with bladder cancer. Will lose my bladder, prostate and urethra. Maybe my life. What song can sooth my anxiety.
Trying to overcome self-doubt and believe I have the power to change like I want to
simply overwhelmed...by so much good and bad and between...too much
trying to make it in a foreign city where somedays you feel amazing and others it feels like everything is x3 harder than it should be (plus gay angst lol)
transgender blues
I don't know how to dance anymore.
Pretty much, there is no hope...planet's fucked, etc. The more I think about it the more hopeless I become. And this is me being cheerful.
I miss someone that recently moved away
I do, too 💐
someone I love died
trying my hardest not to ask my crush out because i'm afraid of rejection
that i'll never allow anyone to love me
this hypes me up: https://open.spotify.com/track/1kiNatIrwDusOZfR29W0LJ?si=dbc429f27bcb4f25
I’m in the longest covid lockdown in the world (Melbourne) and the depression is hitting hard!
this one makes me happy: pebble and the man - bridget st. john https://open.spotify.com/track/67gn853k6WAsvggiyOBvu6?si=3366a9265bca4be1
This song is gorgeous. Thank you!!
i hate every moment of planning my wedding
my childhood trauma lol
I can't get over this friend i felt in love with... I've not seen him for 4 years
give me a song to cure that pain, please
a gay classic!! NOT a cure https://open.spotify.com/track/0q8nQ0H4ad4KYcZdrTZPux?si=b6bf26b4dbe34d8f